Thankful Thursday

The bedtime routine around our house can be a little trying on the patience to say the least....BUT I've found THANKFULNESS when I find myself lying in the dark wondering if Sylas will EVER go to sleep. Some nights are a breeze and he is asleep in 20 minutes, other nights it can be well over an hour...those nights can be pretty tough to say the least.
I know, I am one of the few who lays in bed with my little one until he goes to sleep.....so many attest to the beauty of the sleep method. And most nights I wish I was one of those pro sleep method folks, but so far, I'm just not. It's just not in me, I guess. Alot of it stems from memories of my own childhood of being scared of the dark. My parents will attest to the many nights pleading to not sleep alone ;0)
Nontheless, our night time routine consists of Sylas bouncing around in the bed like an acrobat while I lay in the darkness praying...praying over his life, praying that he'll GO TO SLEEP, and praying that I will have the patience to wait unitl he DOES GO TO SLEEP!!
So here is the thankful part....a few weeks back, as Sylas drifted off into the land of sweet dreams, and his little body was cuddled close to mine, peacefully still, deep breaths in and out....it occurred to me....there will come a day that I will lay in the dark without him....trying to fall asleep myself,

Wondering what my TEENAGE BOY is doing and if he is going to make his curfew on time,

Wondering what my COLLEGE STUDENT SON is doing at 11:30 on a Friday night. Is he studying? hopefully behaving himself?

Wondering what my son who may be TRAVELING THE GLOBE is doing...is he safe, is his belly full, does he have a comfy place to lay his head tonight?

Wondering what my GROWN MAN SON is doing and hoping and praying that he is OK, SAFE, HAPPY, CONTENT, and maybe thinking of me?

So for now....I'm THANKFUL to have his little toddler legs kicking me in the ribs at night...and his feet smooshed up against my face at 2AM....because that means I know WHERE is he and HOW is. That is something to be incredibly, undeniably, enourmously THANKFUL for. So for now, I'll hold on tight and cuddle him close....and BE THANKFUL.